A feel good potion

I opened my group this morning with My name is... I am an addict and I'm feeling Fucking fantastic, with a grin as sly as the fox in the hole. Accept I'm not in my hole, I'm in some dreamlike "good space" as you would say in therapy. I glanced round the perfect circle , meeting eyes with the 'others', A grumpy Marine I suspect is sneaking out at night to rendezvous with his Dutch Internet connection. Returning at early hours(i suggested this morning that the next time someone eats my food could they do it properly, not only eat the chicken breast but the rice to and then throw away the foil. Or perhaps the culprit thought I would not notice an entire lone chicken breast vanished, mm) To continue round our circle, Gramps, looked at me awkwardly, only to hide his own intellectualising, Smiles form my roomies, my closest giving me access to laughter the entire session. In fact once we had giggled a few times to many, teasing our counselor with ease as we find her adorable in her charismatic way of well being humorous in a somewhat wacky way. We were separated, only to be placed opposite each other here the laughing got more fun. 

This was the beginning of my day. Since then I have felt abnormally happy, sensitive to everything good. A almost manic like state of driving across the country. Giving the councilors a bunch of really corny ed roses claiming they from some crazy secret admirer. 

I am most at home with my grandparents and that's where I sit now, a little eery at times as today is the 2 year death anniversary of my uncle (R.I.P) , but as always this is where I am at home. I got here by soaring through traffic dancing to loud music like a puppet like lunatic. I love this of course. I walked through the door singing "I am in a very good mood, you guys are very lucky" Gaggle of laughter echoed through the house.

So rantings of a child like menace meet a passionate , certainly not illusive (today) , Duracell beast. I am not complaining , I like this feeling. I have always understood what is down must come up, and what comes up must come down, and I can live with this..... the challenge is to find a balance? right?