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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

reason in personality

I have recovered somewhat and my mind is feeling more positive, today is all I need to be able to say I can sit with myself and feel. And I am comfortable doing this!

I am grateful today, an abundance of feel good sense,,,

I found beauty in someone I would not generally be attracted to, I did so without having to sexualize, idealise or chase.

I sang in the car merrily to tune from "the boat that rock" with some erratic addicts

I absorbed my being to the stars being swept away by a cold wind, I let it carry me

I felt tired and allowed myself to do just that, without taking a siesta, not even a yawn could pause me

I spoke to my cousin and asked how he was, he sarcastically answered in his broken  manly voice "I'm ALIVE" I giggled and thought 'yes you certainly are!' 

I made a decision without second guessing myself and felt secured in non egotistical confidence

these and many, how often I forget the simple things are almost omnipotent, just simply there and not seen but always subconsciously felt.

And no I will find the pleasure of putting my laptop to bed, walking slowly down the stairs leading me to a soft fall on my pillow.

Good night


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