Imperfection allowed

You know sometimes this 12 step programme seems to be a program of perfection. I sometimes feel it does not allow space to be just a bit of human. Always focusing on your addict. I am not sorry to say that I refuse to be told I'm sick all the time, that I am suffering from a deadly disease. Give me space to be exactly what I am= HUMAN! 

Seriously they say it is a simple program, yes a simple concept but not a simple programme. Be honest in all your affairs, always do the right thing, be completely open minded, allow for no mistakes: strive for perfection? No not me, I can try my hardest but I will make mistakes and to this I am very open minded. 

I don't like the pressure of the word perfection? Is there such a thing anyway. I wouldn't want to be anything more or less than what I am. I can try, that's a given, but allow for mistakes or it would be like expectations. 

Just for today I allow myself to be more than an addict, I can be human!