shafted but still shifting

I bam fed up with the brainwashing. Stop! I am not easily brain washed and I stick to what I believe,
I am not going to attend an AA meeting because its what ”should" be, yes according to
The councelors and the recovering addicts and the statistics. Frankly there needs to be space for new statistics and
Wether I comply to this program or not, I am still in recovery.

Yes I am a little angry. I am passionate about healing and learning, I get stuck everytime I'm told "mm, yes but 1e think you should do this."
Let me think what this means and polietly answer "but that is working for me" then ofcourse
I will be accused of doing it my way or thinking I'm special and different.
Another frankly there is always more than one way and its not about me doing it my way , its about me
Finding the best way that suits me.

Oh and another frankly "YES, we are all special and different!"

To be shunned by other addicts, correction,recovering addicts, just because I don't want to comply to what is offered, seems strange as just like any other addict trying to make way and stay clean
So am -, I am just choosing to do it without the fellowship, it does not make me less than or more at risk of relapse(as many are brainwashed to believe)
No need to treat me differently , I won't judge your choice to go to a meeting, so please don't judge mine not to as
At the beginning of each morning and the end of each day, we still have the same commenality(we are addicts,changing, one seconcond at atime)

No I won't go to a meeting today, but I will do what I have to to stay clean.

Can't we all just get along?