drunk and dusted

You know that feeling when you laughing and you not sue why cos you feel like crying!
Well I just found my self screaming, being unsure as to if this is funny or sad unfortunately my anger got the better of me
And scared the rest away!

I was laying in bed watching a movie as my uncles and mom boozed it up downstairs.
A bit like when I was young, the kids in the room well the
'adults'soclialise, beggening to think I was born an adult and am groing into a child?
Really engrosed in my film, I heard the music go up and then there were my mom and uncle, parading in front of me, dancing and singing.
Well I lost it.

I screamed at them almost barked and bit and they went running out. I locked the door and finished my moviem
Feeling guilty as I do so easily I went down to apologise. It seems no apology was needed as they forgot.
I'm trying to pin point my agression, think I know: yes something to do with how my mom just demanded I turn off my light at 10 30, hello
Mom I'm 30 and you're drunk.

*it does not bother me when others drink and carry on unless I am in some direct line of attack, wethere its ridicule,orsmothering
Or just to much of anything. Reaaly do what u want, just dnt include me when I am clearly
Not in the mood!

But hey , I can also be a moody *****