Just for Tomorrow

I'm sitting here, lonesome and unsure really of what to write. I have to as I have made myself a promise to work on this daily. Something short It would have to be as a have a "trip" to plan for tomorrow. I cant decide what kind of trip I should take? Labyrinth or up the coast. Why do 2 such wonderful decisions have to be so very difficult for me to make: That is an easy answer I am taking 2 people with me and like my mom says "you don't hunt in packs" My mom knows me well.

I just had my mom on the phone reading the entire NA Newsletter to me. The very news letter I read just an hour ago. Hearing it from her was sum how more amusing and less depressing. I had just been feeling very sorry for the certain anonymous people who submit their thoughts in to that very well made but honestly very desperate and very sad newsletter, I i can call it that, for it sounds much like quotes from all the recovery literature, slogans from all the fellowship meeting and really no individual flair at all! I respect that repetition of slogans, comfort of a fellowship, the constant need to reminice guilt and shame, climbing steps works for many people, I simply state It does not work for me. I go these meetings as it is whats expected of me, thankfully some of them are very funny and I stay close to those, realistically i will not stay close for life as I know in my heart I will find something that works for me!

Tomorrow I set out on a adventure of being free from rules, expectations and repetition. Tomorrow I explore roads and ways that carry me spiritually. Tomorrow I will drive up the coast...