with or without Freud

I spend a lot of time dreaming about counter transference, yes yes IM allowed to dream.

this grinding feeling of intentional or unintentional love for her. Evey time I find out more and that only happens every so often, the little details keep me keen. A knacking feeling to get closer but further apart are we.

She is cute, sexy and beautiful. Sure she is a bit of a perfectionist, perfectly so. I don not think she is a god, or has any superpowers, well maybe one or two.

I don't know may it is transference on my half, but so many years later, could it be? well I guess so many years later I still pry for counter transference, and how would I ever know anyway.

I think i need to start seeing someone other than just her.

cheers to the slight possibility of the counter and god dammit to the other.