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Monday, October 4, 2010

vulnerable love flaw

Sometime when you so busy being angry with someone who hurts you, you forget to closely into this person and it comes by as 'a mistake' a small detail.
I have been so angry and so busy resenting my dad, that I was blinded to anything that had anything to do with him. I stopped seeing him as human, he had no personality to me, no tone or expression and tonight something of a small miracle occurred after dinner.
I did not realise I had seen it til I got home, there he was, this man 'I hate' , I saw him as a real life person. He was scratching his hands, vigorously without even him noticing, but I did, I noticed, I saw him and I asked, "dad, why are you scratching your hands", he became like a child, alarmed that I would notice and embarrassed that I cared. I saw a vulnerable flaw. In this moment everything that stood, fell apart and all I saw was a dad, a stressed out dad who is normally a monster to me is in fact just like me, a person , a beautiful vulnerable person and at that moment even if just for that moment I was not angry and i love him. I am not angry and I feel love.

1 comment:

  1. Beautiful truth spoken here! Thank you. Always remember this.

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