Sometime when you so busy being angry with someone who hurts you, you forget to closely into this person and it comes by as 'a mistake' a small detail.
I have been so angry and so busy resenting my dad, that I was blinded to anything that had anything to do with him. I stopped seeing him as human, he had no personality to me, no tone or expression and tonight something of a small miracle occurred after dinner.
I did not realise I had seen it til I got home, there he was, this man 'I hate' , I saw him as a real life person. He was scratching his hands, vigorously without even him noticing, but I did, I noticed, I saw him and I asked, "dad, why are you scratching your hands", he became like a child, alarmed that I would notice and embarrassed that I cared. I saw a vulnerable flaw. In this moment everything that stood, fell apart and all I saw was a dad, a stressed out dad who is normally a monster to me is in fact just like me, a person , a beautiful vulnerable person and at that moment even if just for that moment I was not angry and i love him. I am not angry and I feel love.
Monday, October 4, 2010
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Beautiful truth spoken here! Thank you. Always remember this.
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